My friend Jennifer(not sure how to link you to her blog) asked us to give a testimony of God working in our lives. Lately I have had to trust more than ever, especially financially.
Last week, Michael was about to take Grant to a football game, but the night was a little chilly. He asked me to get a jacket for him. I had to say I did not have one! Then I remembered someone at church had given us a bag of clothes for him. I ran to the garage, and there was a jacket, in his size! Two days later, a different person at church handed me a bag filled with bakery snacks.
So, God IS providing for us. It is just so hard to let him lead me to the "green" pastures. If you have seen "that the world may know" video lessons, you know that a "green" pasture in Israel is really just enough grass for the day, not any rolling green meadows.
I am thankful that we have no large medical or family issues hanging over us. I knew seminary would be difficult, but did not imagine quite this. Mostly I have a hard time(pride again?) telling my children that they cannot have something, go somewhere, do some activity. I hate having to admit to people that I cannot pay for the costumes for the musical, or go on a trip to see Ben's race.
Sometimes I can see the humor. Like when the ac was out(not due to us), I told the children we could pretend we were missionaries in a tropical climate with no ac. The older ones did not go for it.
God knows our situation, and He has a purpose and a plan. I KNOW this in my head. I just have a hard time living it! At times I just want to holler, "Just tell me what I am supposed to learn from this so we can move on!"
May God bless those who read this!